“here’s the day you hoped would never come…”

“you can all go home now. it’s over. it’s over….. so over.
-Meredith Grey

“when you said ‘it’s so over’ were you referring to the ceremony, or were you trying to send a message to you lover?”
- Burke’s Mom

it’s over. i’m over. you.

“be true to your work, your word, and your friend.”

i’m doing my part.

… are you doing yours?

<3.

i’ve had too much time to think lately. (“the pros and cons of breathing.”)

Bury me standing under your window with the cinder block in hand
Yeah cause no one will ever feel like this again
And if I could move, I’m sure it would only be to crawl back to you
I must have dragged my guts a block…
They were gone by the time we {talked}…

Whoa, I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice

Whoa, I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice

Stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me
Hide the details I don’t want to know a thing

I hate the way you say my name like it’s something secret
My pen is the barrel of the gun.
Remind me which side you should be on

Whoa, I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice

Whoa, I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice

Stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me
Hide the details I don’t want to know a thing

I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel
I wish that i was as invisible as you make me feel…

(Whoa, I want to hate you half as much as I hate my)
(Whoa, I want to hate you half as much as I hate my)
(1..2..3..4..)

Whoa, I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice

Whoa, I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself
You know that I could crush you with my voice

<3.

“… so i’ll check the weather wherever you are cause i wanna know if you can see the stars tonight.”

and I don’t know where you went when you left me but
says here in the water you must be gone by now
I can tell somehow
one hand on the trigger of a telephone
wonderin’ when the call comes
where you say it’s alright
you got your heart right

maybe I’ll sleep inside my coat and
wait on your porch ‘till you come back home
oh, right
I can’t find a flight

we share the sadness
split screen sadness

two wrongs make it all alright tonight
two wrongs make it all alright tonight
two wrongs make it all alright tonight
two wrongs make it all alright tonight

“all you need is love” is a lie ’cause
we had a love but we still said goodbye
now we’re tired, battered fighters

and it stings when it nobody’s fault cause there’s
nothing to blame at the drop of your name
it’s only the air you took and the breath you left

so maybe I’ll sleep inside my coat and
wait on your porch ’til you come back home
oh, right
I can’t find a flight
so I’ll check the weather wherever you are
cause I wanna know if you can see the stars tonight
it might be my only right

we share the sadness (two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
split screen sadness (two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
we share the sadness (two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
split screen sadness (two wrongs make it all alright tonight)

I called
because
I just
need to feel you on the line
don’t hang up this time
and I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you’d fought me ‘til your dying day
don’t let me get away

cause I can’t wait to figure out what’s wrong with me
so I can say ‘this is the way that I used to be
there’s no substitute for time
or for the sadness (two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
split screen sadness (two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
we share the sadness (two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
split screen sadness (two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
oh and the sadness
it’s alright, it’s alright
oh and the sadness
it’s alright, it’s alright
oh and the sadness
it’s alright, it’s alright

John Mayer, you know me so well.

<3.

“… you make me cum. …you make me complete. …you make me completley miserable.”

basically. in the words of Kym Longhi, that would be an “end packet”

so i kind of want a lot of things lately. some are people, some are places, some are important, some are simply because.

but in general, i want… you. [i want you so bad, it's driving me mad.] (sorry, i couldn’t help it)

this is one case where i think the name of the blog says more than the blog entry itself.

<3.

you.

i’ve been thinking about you lately.

a lot.

and i feel like i should tell you, but i can’t seem to gather the courage to pick up the telephone and tell you. only because i feel that neither i or what i have to say is significant enough to where i think you would be compelled to answer the phone. but it has to be, because since you’ve been on my mind, i haven’t been able to do a single thing but think of you. so i’ve been purging my mind of you by listening to my entire 7,000 song iTunes library on shuffle. but this song played, and immediately i thought of you:

I don’t know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can’t react
And games that never amount
To more than they’re meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We’ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You’ve made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can’t go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I’m painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It’s time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We’ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You’ve made it now

Falling slowly sing your melody
I’ll sing along

“i hate you so much that i love you. i don’t know how that works, but it does.”

<3.