“just because we never called it love doesn’t make it right to leave…”

Jeune Lune,

Your existence here this past 30 years is kind of a big deal. Even though I’ve only been alive for the past 19, and, regrettably, only experienced the last 7.

It’s been real.

And since you are running away (with my heart) to France, or wherever the new “phase of the moon” takes you, I was wondering if you would leave me the Tony Award you won in 2005. I think it would be a lovely parting gift, and should atone for the loss of my post graduation acting career within your wonderfully aged walls that once housed an abandoned storage space.

…or not. I know, that one was a bit of a stretch. But you can’t blame a girl for trying.

I want you to know that despite what others think, I know your “financial issues” weren’t due to lack of attendance. In the 7 years that I have been blessed enough to share with you, I had never attended a performance where a single one of your plush red chairs weren’t filled with ready ears, eager eyes, and an open heart.

And since I will be forced to sell my soul to some other local theatre company, let it be known that as soon as I make a few million, I am bringing you back. You can count on that.

My soul won’t rest a minute until I know that one day, we will be reunited. Even if I have to travel to the other side of the world to experience you again.

Avec L’Amour,
.:a:.

<3.

“see you later, see you soon”: the beginning of the end.

Kerstin, Claire, Cassi, Molly, Katie and Johanna; aka my Lovelies;

this past 9 months has gone by amazingly fast. they’ve been filled with numerous quoteable times most on the 12th floor, a few at UDS and many others in random places.

and i’m so glad to have met every single one of you. and it absolutely breaks my heart that after forging this bond, and being there for one another in the best of our times and the worst of our times these past two semesters.

Cassi, I’m sorry I missed your departure. I miss you like it’s my job. and i love you. and i’m gonna be going crazy without you next semester. i hope you have a buttload of fun next semester in Australia. i expect pictures, missy!!

now for the real purpose of this note:

first farewells are always tough. especially considering that i’ve spent practically every waking moment not in class or rehearsal with Kerstin, Claire, Cassi and Molly. so today, at a little after 7 when Kerstin texted me with an “i’m leaving” i prepared myself for the worst. i already knew i was going to cry, and sure enough, i started tearing up right as we got to the front desk for Kerstin to turn in her key. we all walked her out the the parking lot, where promptly, the tears began to flow freely. this was possibly the best and worst goodbye ever.even though we were all ready to close the year and head home, we weren’t necessarily prepared to leave everyone behind. especially in this case, since this is a more permanent goodbye. Kerstin’s off to ‘Kato! but she’s promised us a bunch of visits, and i’m holding her to that. when we got to her car in the ramp, we all stood there for what seemed like precious hours packed into minutes. we didn’t have enough time to say goodbye, and we knew that time wouldn’t wait for us. but we made the most of that brief time, and i can say, for myself at least, that i relived every second of the past 9 months with you guys in that swift seven minutes. as Claire said, using Kerstin’s infamous words “you’ll always be right shnrrr.”(i hope i spelled that right)
after our third chorus of goodbyes, we watched Kerstin pull away, her tail lights flickering at us as she followed the arrow pointing left, conveniently marked “exit”.
what i really want to say is i’m grateful to know that i’ve met the people who will probably be my best friends for the rest of my life here, this year. i know this isn’t goodbye, so i won’t say that. rather, i leave you all with a see you later, see you soon.

lots of love, hugs and cosmos,
<3. Addy
(PS – I’m still crying.)